Welcome to Mental Space Monday! Where we journey inside the rabbit hole of collective consciousness and submit to the whims of curiosity.
Way to go!! You have made it to the second half of the Zombie Diaries – That means you've learned to a thing or two about un-dead existence and how to re-orient yourself in a world that is totally different from your new perspective than it was before your "death". Good work! In case you are just tuning in, we are examining the 10 traits exhibited by people who have had near death experiences. including those life-altering moments that just feel like we have died; divorce, loss of a loved one, loss of a job; anything that reminds us that we actually know nothing about ourselves or the world around us and we need to re-examine the beliefs we previously accepted as fact. Soooooo....
Zombie Trait #6: A strong sense of life’s purpose.
I seem to struggle almost daily with my direction in life. I am interested in so many things I have a hard time pausing on any one of them to decide that it is my true direction. I am in a constant state of mental flux about my purpose. I struggle regularly with nihilism when the glass of my spiritual compass fogs over and I feel as if there is no point to even checking my coordinates. And really? Sometimes there isn't.
But wait - there is a distinct difference between purpose and direction. This does not inherently entail that we zombies know exactly where we are going and I have to be honest, after my "death" I did have the sense that was all headed toward something. I pictured myself, tubing down a river, moving steadily (though often sporadically) through this brief existence. But then I began to get caught up on where that river was going. What is the end? If I don't know the end, how do I know where to go? I became so anxious about the purpose, that I lost sight of my purpose. I was so worried about moving down the correct path, that I paralyzed all movement at all.
So, here's what I have learned - (until tomorrow, when I will be a nihilist again, at least for a couple of hours). While it helps to feel as if we are barreling toward some hidden, much-anticipated destination, even more encouraging is when we decide, sight-unseen that the end is completely irrelevant and that our true purpose is to feel the wind whipping through our hair and the blood pumping through our veins and to appreciate the rush they give us.
At these times what we really need is to remember what we already know:
The compass is not in our hands, it's in our hearts.
And though I want to force my purpose into my Waze app and know exactly how far away my next turn is (narrated succinctly by Elvis) I would be sick of that certainty before I even get to that turn. The more I inspect this "Purpose" that I was so sure of, the more I realize that my purpose, that the purpose of all of us, is to trust that there is one and quit worrying about it. Life is not made by counting miles to the next turn, it is truly lived when we start looking out the window and delighting in this one moment. I propose that our purpose lies in the movement, not in the end result. We can all find, in this very moment, enough richness to continue our journey; to progress in some direction - any direction.
Our true purpose is to delve, to learn, to try, to fail, to bleed, to laugh, to struggle, to find, to lose, to love, to fear and to face those fears.... by moving forward. When you have moments of doubt about where it's all headed you can at least recognize that the view on a moving train is in constant flux. If you don't like it, take another step, experience another moment, face another challenge, and it will all look different again. Commit to your personal purpose of "verbing" this moment of life itself. Fill in that mad lib blank with your own personal entry and appreciate that your purpose is nothing more than to do just that, fully, for now. Your purpose is just to verb.
*Don't believe me? this is a WAY bigger question, but a few great references: -Greg Anderson says: "Focus on the journey, not the destination. Joy is found not in finishing an activity, but in doing it." -Also, check out what Jason Silva and Shots of Awe have to say about the joy of the journey.
Embrace the delusion; enjoy the results. Have a wonderful day my lovelies.
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